Age is a big fat Nothing

So I have been thinking. I know, I know..what else is new? That's all I ever seem do. Rambling aside, what I have been thinking about is 'Human Age' and its detrimental effect on all our lives. Bear with me. After thinking on it long and hard, I have come to a conclusion. If only I came to understand it a long time ago, I would have spared myself from a lot of sufferings in life. It is simply is this: "Age is a big fat NOTHING".

Now out of context, it does sound like and can be taken in a negative way. So don't jump the gun. Now we all have heard it before : 'Age is just a number' from people around us. They might say it to persuade us to do something, make something of our life, to get of our asses and not be a train wreck. But the people who are saying it, do they believe it themselves? Or saying it to sound all sage and wise. I do not think they do. Heck I didn't before. Not until life went off the rails, got claimed by the usual suspects of pain and doom.

So what was I saying? Something about the context of it all. Okay. To me the word 'Age' is like a prison. It is created by the cogs of our societal system. Sometimes I feel that it's sole purpose is to deprive us the freedom to do whatever we want to do in our lives. It’s like we are in a race against time, where the age to be free, to be happy, have fun, enjoy life, be successful, to say 'YOLO' and do whatever we want is very short. So we are pressed to do anything that we can do, at a specific time within a specific age range; because after that age we are counted as an obsolete model. So we bury all our dreams, happiness and passion for life; awaiting for the day when we meet our end. Now I am not claiming to be a all knowing AI or whatever (though I think AI will replace us humans for sure, but that's a tale for another day).

Now the important thing to internalize here is that age is not what matters, because what really matter in our life, our attitude towards it, our hopes and dreams, commitment and perseverance. Human age indicates the passage of time and sure we will have more difficulties when we inevitably reach a certain age; but the key to live our life to the fullest resides in our minds. There is nothing that can stop us from reaching our goals if only we believe that everything is possible. Our mind is the powerhouse that runs us, can do anything if only we truly believe that we can do it. We should never let the age or peer pressure or societal pressure hinder us. So repeat after me...'Age is just a number', 'Age means Nothing', 'Age is a big fat Nothing'. So do not let it control your life. Because hey, YOLO.

Puppet Life & Poker Face

Puppet Life & Poker face - using these two words as metaphors. Using these two metaphors to explain what it feels like to live like a puppet with strings attached when you are a living person. Living like a machine using manual instruction.  

Trying to tell why keep a face to pretend ''everything's fine'' or ''living the perfect life". Keep on wearing a mask to  hide one's true face and feelings. We all do it. Some a little, some a lot. And if asked we vehemently deny it, laugh it off as if like a joke. Because facing the truth, telling the truth even to one's oneself is scary.

But we live in a world where everything and everyone is connected via the strings of the virtual overlord and there the rat race is to show the masses or so-called virtual friends that the life they live is nothing but absolutely picture perfect.When the reality, the truth is so so far from that. But we do it.All day,everyday. Why though? For instant gratification? What is the value of that even? Maybe its for the dopamine rush for a few moments, perhaps. 

We all have become puppets of this world, doing things as it wants us to do without even realizing we are being controlled. It's taking us far way from our real life, feelings, hopes, dreams and the 'funny' tragedy is subconsciously we are letting it. If you have read this far, maybe you were hoping I got some answers to this conundrum. 

I don't. I got some clarity though. I am not as much tangled and attached with these strings as the others that I witness daily. Maybe because I was born in the 90's. I got to be a part of real life before I became a hybrid human-puppet. Who knows maybe the overlord is letting write this to make me feel I got some control. Who is even real human being anymore?

Dear Mind

You've been here ever since these eyes opened for the first time to the colors and lights of this world.You've been here when I weren't really welcomed with loving hearts..although I didn't knew that as a fact for a long time. You've been here from the beginning to see me trying to be the reason of someone's approval and pride..although I am not really sure I ever truly was.

You are with me when every time I try to remember the past years of my life but only recall fears and despairs and one single prayer,which never really came through.Through it all you were with me.You've never let me give up though.You've never let me give in to the darkness.You've told me to fight,to stand up for myself.

 
You've told me I do have the ability.That I can achieve anything if I put you to good use despite anyone who ever thought otherwise.You've  made me strong.For you I've learned to believe in me.For you I am who I am today.Because You've never given up on me.You were and are still with me.

And now,on the dawn of a chapter which tells a tale of us to all those skeptics.That me being born as me wasn't a reason to be downhearted or that I wasn't a burden or someone who would be nothing but a disappointment.I wanted to thank you for being with me always,to help me chase away all those false allegations.

Lastly I want to ask you something..to promise me something..It's not an ominous one but it's an immense one.Want to know what that is?..Please never give up on me..or give in to the darkness that always looming around the corner..because you're all I've got...because we've still got a long way to go..

With Love- 
Me.

 

Explosion of Emotions

Though we differ in the way we look and things we believe in, there’s something we all share: emotion. Human emotion is innate in all of us; it’s something we’re born with and something we die with. Happiness, sadness, love, hatred, worries, anger ,fear and indifference – these are things that constantly occur in our daily lives. Now people in their everyday life express this emotions when they needed to be expressed.

The people to whom these emotions are expressed, almost everyone understand them and act as needed. I am not saying that they understand them perfectly, understand what are you wish to convey; they understand them by their own perception on emotions. But if you live in a place where your close people don't understand you, don't care about your opinion about your life, force you to do what you don't want to do, create pressure at your every step, don't care about your feelings,where expressing your feeling means shower of negativity at you, how on earth you are going to express what you feel?

If we can't tell our close people how we feel, if we keep them all inside then one day these emotions EXPLODE. A little kindness, a bit understanding, is it too much to ask for? If these situations in home and life keep on happening,
"Emotions will Explode" from time to time. So keep living like this? For how long? Is this life? Living life and expressing true feelings shouldn't be this hard.